So one day this year I discovered that my grandma use to be this AMAZING artist, I mean she use to draw people and they actually look like people.

Kinda like you are staring at a mirror sorta thing

Now my mom is a very awesome artist as well but she doesn't draw people she does web designs and candy wrappers, they look like very fancy, funny, any type of border you can think of. What about me T_T. I can't draw worth of shit, yea I doodle but that is basic, anyone can do that whether you suck or not.

WHEN AM I GOING TO FIND THE LIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I have it in me, I mean it's in my blood to be this talented artist so why can't I? I have always thought I'd be the person "who has it in them but can't bring out the skillz so eventually they break the chain" type of person. Like it skipped a generation but felt sorry so it gave me like a fraction of artistic skill instead of all of it. Which I am perfectly fine with until I see everyone else's art and think "Yeah and if I stop procrastinating I could do that too."

I love writing, wouldn't trade my poems for anything in the world but me still wants to draw prettyful stuff.

Oh and also I've started looking for colleges and I was checking out VT. Found the list of requirements and I either have to submit a 15 poem portfolio, an excerpt from a play, or a 25 pages fictional story.

Problem is I can't write my story....I've had Mist ideas in my head, everything I need to complete at least three books now and three years later none of it has even formed one page. I try but I chicken out. This is the hardest thing in my life, I need help on how I can make this the best thing I could ever create. I have 15 poems exactly I could submit but that would be me just taking it easy. I want to test myself and a part of me really feels this is my chance to see how good of a story Mist can be. Ask he knows how stressful this is for me